So, in my life, there has been a decent number of people that I have truly gotten to know; and I mean, really know. Some, I did, but through time, and distance, what I knew of them was only but a memory. I love people. Always have & always will. There is something about each story that is different and it's intriguing. My story is one like no one else's; I know. Someone else's story is so different from mine. We each have our own struggles, wins, losses, breakups, embarrassments, addictions, and joys. And each of those changes the world, if only a little, each passing day. I have come to think about a lot lately of why, in this world where we can all relate, and are united in some way shape or form, do I yearn for more? More of what? I believe that nothing in this life will fully satisfy our finite and selfish selves. Never. We are always looking for more. Even when it seems as though we have all we need. For myself, I have questions of: who will I fall in love with? Where will my career go? What places will I travel to next? Will I be a good mother? Will I be a mother? How will I change the world? How can I love people better? How long will I live? The answers to these questions will remain unknown until we actually are living them. Which is what makes life so crazy, right?
I would love to fall in love someone who has similar, yet not completely exact, motives, dreams and a personality that meshes perfectly with mine, yet still there be room for constructive criticism. I want to fall for him over and over and over again with every day. I want to learn and grow with him in our passions for our lives. Differences are present; but that is what keeps it interesting. I will learn to love the Lord better because of him.
I do not know where my career will go. I have my dreams. And they are becoming more of a reality each day; and yes, my soul is ecstatic. I would like to see my career work for the bettering and love for people, to use my musical ability, and to reach the nations and my home nation. I do not know where I will travel to next; His lamp is a light unto my feet, so I follow Him.
I would love to be a good mother. At least, I hope that I will be.
I want to change the world so that people will know how loved they are. And how beautiful their lives of dust can be. I can testify to a few things of dust, dirt and mud in my life. They will know.
I thank Him for every morning that I wake up and have the beautiful privilege of living another day. Life is far too short to not be thankful. And often, we forget. I know I do. I take a lot of my days for granted because in those days, it is "all about me" and what I need to do, and how busy I am, and yadda yadda yadda.
I yearn for a lot. Much more than is ever said on this page at this moment. I yearn for a life of abundance; and I live it every day. I learn something new every day; and its challenging, frustrating, wonderful and sometimes, emotional. But this life, I won't ever forget. It is a story. Unfolding its crisp, new pages every day; waiting to be seen and explored.
That is all for today. Much love.
Rachel Yvonne
